Family Bizzznezzzzz

He was the first among the many and growing up, he used to get into a lot of trouble- seriously alot. drugs, theft, vandalisme and the whole lot. you name it you got it. 

this went on and on for a few years till he was 20 when he finally realized that he was so full of shit. so he tried to change, shifting his lifestyle towards another direction. the one that would grant him at least some meaning of decency.

along the way, he learnt that being cruel was way much easier than being kind. that it takes a lot of work to actually love another and its a breeze being ignorant and stupid. 

and when it came to family, nothing ever topped that. never will. he did what he could to make up for his wrongdoings. he became a little bit more helpful, attended family dinners and what not. he gave what  he could. however, he started to see unfairness within his own family.

its a cross between jealousy and envy. he noticed that all the other siblings will without fail get the good stuff. not that he is demanding, but when you see your siblings get what they want easily, its bound to spark up some unwanted thoughts. he felt bad thinking that way and so he ignored it because pretending like it didnt matter was among his strong traits. plus he had a straight emotionless face. so it wasnt really hard for him.

a few years laters, from barely noticeable, things became clearly visible. what do you expect when your brother gets a spanking brand-new car just with only one request? how's a brother suppose to react when he had to get into an accident with his second-hand bike that nearly claimed his life to get a used-car which breaks down every month?

it was just a moment thing. so he thought. 

that was till days turned into months and the unfairness grew into a size of an elephant. he tried asking for something that he wanted but his request was denied in an instant. reasoning didnt work either. he started to turn bitter, minutes away from morphing into the rebellious ignorant child he was some years back until he came across this text message in his mom's phone. it was from his dad.

"be fair to our children. we denied him alot already. he has changed. give him what he wants because, i can see he is passionate about something and we as parents, it is our responsibility to support his dreams. dont let him think that we dont care when we actually do. doing otherwise will grant us a bitter child though he is an adult now."

at that very moment, he was torn into pieces and guilt overshadowed him.

he felt bad for asking so much when all that really matters is the unconditional love his parents had to offer.

30 minutes later...he started pissing off his mom again because he knew that his mom makes arguement fun.

lesson learned?